Sania's testimony "Questioning About Your Faith" on 11/09/2016, 7:21pm...
Hi everyone, My name is Sania. I born and grew up in catholic Christian family. I lived in Islamic country where I always get treated as minority and discriminated at so many times because of my Faith. It was very challenging for me at some points in my life to keep me faith on Jesus Christ. In college and during my nursing training when everyone around me was Muslim and tried to fully convinced me that what I'm believing is totally wrong. But i followed my inherited faith i never give it up.
But after all these years though I was church going Christian, practicing my faith reading Bible particularly Psalms and Proverbs and book of Daily promise. I never felt that I don't know my faith very well. When in October 2015 i I had discussion about Christian and Muslim believes with my Muslim friends and there questions made me realise what I'm missing in my life and in my faith.
He asked me "If Jesus is God or son of the God".
And for me it was very simple and easy to say "They are 3 in one". But it was difficult to explain my point.. my faith on the concept of Trinity.
We started having long discussion about Christian Muslims believes. I tried my best to prove him that his religion and faith is not right. I searched so many things from Google against Islam.
I am glad that I'm not in Islamic country at the moment otherwise my this discussion would lead me to death that i am blasphemous.
During all this time deep down in me there was spirit of questioning and doubting taken birth. I started questioning myself about my faith that all these years of my life I had been believing that Jesus is the God but now I'm unable to express my belief with a proper reference from Bible.
What kind of Christian am I if I don't even know my Holy book?
What I had been feeding myself all these years with a title of 'Daily bread', if I am still straving?
How can I prove anyone wrong if I don't know what is right?
All these questions made realised me that i did not have a relationship with Jesus Christ I was following Him because I was born and brought up with this Christian believe.
And that was the moment when I started taking my faith very seriously. I started reading Word of God more, starting watching Christian movies to know more and more about Christ. During this time I found these verses which was clear indication for me that I'm following the right path "Jesus Christ".
Allah has set a seal upon their hearts and upon their hearing, and over their vision is a veil. And for them is a great punishment. 2:7 Quran
"He has blinded their eyes and hardened their hearts, so they can neither see with their eyes, nor understand with their hearts, nor turn that I would heal them. John 12:40
And that was the time when i came to Christ more not to justify my believes to any muslim friend but to myself. And to grow more in my faith and my walk with Jesus Christ. Then in my church told me about Baptism and i immediately showed my interest because I wanted to do everything in which I would grow in my faith. And I started studing bible course Life with Jesus Christ. Though it was very basic and everything I knew before but still I wanted to do it completely and thoroughly. And I find those basic points very crucial every week of study.
After I done my life with Christ study I have realised how important it is to be baptised. Because it's a real declaration before the people of Jesus our Love for Jesus and the acceptance of Jesus as our Lord and Saviour and believing that salvation is only through Him.
And because of this I can see postive changes in my behaviour. I am more thankful to God now then ever before. I live daily life by keep Jesus in my head as a role model. And I acknowledge His blessings and grace more now which was already in my life. He was always working in my life but I start noticing it more now then before. I am assured now that Holy spirit is guiding me in my day to day life.
I can proudly say that I'm Christian not because I have inherited this faith from my parents but because it's my own choice to follow Christ.