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Testimony: My Journey
Kim b's testimony "My Journey" on 10/02/2019, 1:59pm...
My testimony :I am not telling you this to feel sorry for me this is what my life was like before I knew God and accepted Jesus Christ as my Lord and savior. When I was young we didn't go to church much at all until my mom married my step father. He was Catholic but we only went to church on Easter Sunday and Christmas. So I didn't know much about God.
My life had its ups and downs like most people. I was molested several several times when I was young. Which led me to being very promiscuous in my young teenage years. My step father was not a very nice man. He beat me some times not to say I didn't deserve some of the beatings I got but sometimes he went to far. He mentally abused me too. He would call me a whore and would shame me in the way that I thought about myself. I had a very low self esteem.
I turned to alcohol and drugs in my young teenage years. I did bad things and ended up pregnant at the age of 15 and had her at 16. The father of my daughter was a preachers son and wild as ever.
He was an alcoholic and loved pain pills. We were off and on off and on. At 17 we had a son. I let my brother-in-laws ex wifes sister adopt him because i never knew where his daddy would be where we would be living weather we would be together or not and where our next meal would come from. I saw what he was putting our daughter through and I was doing well to be a good mom to our daughter and didn't want another child living like that so I did what I thought was right for him.
It was one of the hardest decisions of my life. When my daughter was about 2 I had finally had enough of her daddy and finally said enough is enough. After several failed relationships and several years later I met my now husband of 28 years. I got pregnant before we got married and when he was a baby we started going to church at my husbands grandfather's church, he was a preacher, and we both excepted Jesus Christ as our Lord savior and was baptized. Our lives changed for the better.
It wasn't perfect but when I got saved I have NEVER felt so much love and it was like a weight had been lifted from me. He changed me in so many ways I didn't even curse anymore. I much later became a Sunday school teacher which was even more of a blessing. He even used me one day. At the time I didn't know what was going on on but just had this urge inside me. My car broke down one day on the interstate and a truck driver stopped to pick me up i was scared to get in with him but Jesus kept telling me its ok youll be fine. So I got in with him. He said i wasn't sure if you would get in with me or not and I told him Jesus told me to get in I would be ok so I did.
He sat there for a minute and then said ya know I'm glad you did and glad you said that my family has been trying to get me to come to church and I wasn't sure if id go until now. Thank you for telling me that because now I know i will go. Jesus used ME to witness to someone, someone like me. I stayed in church for several years but then my husband and I started riding motorcycles with my sister and her friends. I went to church and road but then I let my guard down and in came Satan with his lies. He made me believe that the people in church were looking down on me.
My kids in my Sunday school class were telling me that their parents were making them move up to the next class but I let Satan in again with his lies saying they just dont want someone like you teaching there kids. I let down my guard and I ended up leaving the church. Everything was going well for awhile but in the end I lost my job and became on disability because of my back. My husband and I almost split up several times.
The camel that broke the staws back was when my husband's plant shut down because they moved to Texas. Im not saying that its Gods fault buy no means it was my fault for turning my back on the Lord I am so ashamed to say.
It took us going through the trials we are currently going through to come back to the Lord. Ya know what even after me leaving him and his church family God and my church family welcomed me back with open arms. We are still at this time going through trials for he said we will all suffer as Christ did but what we are going through is nothing like the pain that he endured when they beat him with whips put a crown of thorns on his head and nailed him to the cross to suffer until God finally died. But Glory be to God for he Jesus rose again in 3 days and he remained on earth for 40 days then went to heaven to take his seat on the throne to the right hand of his father.
It took us going through these trials of not knowing where we would get the money to pay for food our bills or food to come back to God and i am ashamed of myself for ever turning my back on the one who loved me the most. I have depression and anxiety and was a total mess with worry wondering where will we get the money to pay our bills where will we get the money to pay for all the medicine we are on? I turned back to God and prayed and prayed and started seeking him in the bible like never before. He took those worries away he helped me with my depression and anxiety.
Between my disability my husbands unemployment and the help of a family member the Lord has sent us we are getting by. We have started going back to church and am so thankful to God to say that my grandson we are so privileged to be raising accepted Jesus Christ as his Lord and savior. He told us when we got home im so glad i got saved i feel so great. Ive never felt like this before. He told us that for several days.
We may still be going through trials but God said we should all suffer as Christ did and be glory in this time. It is hard sometimes but I know that if it wasn't for what we are going through now we wouldn't have came back to Jesus and God when we did my grandson wouldn't be saved.
God loves us and wants nothing but the best for us. Even though I let Satan in my life and went back to my flesh worldly ways he forgave me and accepted us back with open loving understanding forgiving arms. He loves us just as we are. Amen. We dont have to be perfect but exspects us to do our best. Will you please give him a chance to show you how much he loves you and what he is all about. I pray that my testimony will touch someones heart oh heavenly Father that at least one person will give you that opportunity to come into their lives. In jesus name I pray amen.