Lori's testimony "Accepting Christ" on 1/15/2013, 1:21pm...
What would it take for you to accept Christ when you have rejected Him so many times? What would it take for you to be transformed from lost to found in Jesus Christ? Would it take a lot? It certainly did in my case.
When I think of where I have come from, I know that He transformed me and made me a new creation. You see I was not raised in a Christian home and had no Christians in my world to lead by example. I was a very lost young woman, but praise be to God, that He brought me into His kingdom!
After you read this you may think, ‘Yeah, right. What’s she been smoking?’ and I realize that it sounds crazy to the world, but this is my testimony:
My parents were divorced when I was seven. My mom raised my sister and I the best she could but she was a single parent and worked full time just trying to pay the bills. My Dad left the state and we didn’t hear from him again for 21 years. We were often on welfare and moved from place to place as we got behind on the rent. It was not a great childhood. At the age of thirteen I started smoking pot. By fifteen I was doing drugs and drinking. At age fifteen I started getting involved in witchcraft, casting spells, playing around with a ouji board and basically anything involved witchcraft. By the age of seventeen I started getting involved in New Age, reincarnation, crystals, and all that goes with it. Drugs and drinking remained a theme throughout my youth, also. By the age of 21 I was teaching New age classes and was heavily into both new age and drinking/drugs.
Why do I tell you all this? Because, you have to understand where I was and my attitude at this time. I really hated Christians. I had an attitude that said, ‘who are they to judge me and cram their morality down my throat?’ I would often curse Christians. I had a couple of friends in high school witness to me but I rejected their attempts. In truth, now I know my problem was not with Christians, but with God. God made the standards he wants us to live by, not Christians. But at this point, I was all about rebellion, wickedness and sin.
At age 21 I married an alcoholic man and was married to him for the next 16 years. We continued in what drew us together, drinking and drugs and witchcraft. After divorce from him I began seeking some kind of peace in my life. I met and married my present husband who was what I would call a nominal Christian. I began to see that he had the peace I was seeking. I began thinking ‘what is big deal with Jesus, anyway?’ I became curious about Jesus and picked up a couple of books (NOT a Bible) about him. Shortly after seeking Jesus, he appeared to me in a vision. I saw Him as a skeletal, emaciated man wearing a white robe that was glowing from within. I felt I had to reach out and touch the hem of his robe. (I didn’t know this was scriptural as I had never even touched a Bible.) I reached out to touch Him and heard voices (the enemy) saying, ‘Don’t touch him. You will hurt him. No! Stop!’ I knew it was something I must do and I had to touch his robe. When I touched his sleeve, He was transformed into a healty, strong man but the transformation was not about Him, I was the one transformed! He looked me squarely in the eye and said, “In your past, you have had no time for me. Now all that has changed.” When I looked into His eyes I knew there was nothing I could hide. He saw everything about me including my mountains of sin and my wickedness. I looked into His eyes and saw such incredible LOVE! I felt such Love I had never felt before. But there was not just love, but mercy, justice, peace, and JUDGEMENT. Nobody in this world wants to talk about judgement, but it is there, too. And HOLINESS! I felt that I was shot through with a million volts of electricity. It is difficult to describe what I felt in earthly words as there is nothing of this world that can totally describe all that He is. When I realized who He was, I could stand in His presence no longer and fell on my face before him. I not only fell on my face, but began pleading, “mercy, mercy, Lord!” Then I began speaking in a language that I had never heard. The words poured out of my mouth and I didn’t know what it was but realized it was in praise to Him as I laid on my face before Jesus. The next thing I knew, he was gone. I was still speaking in an unknown language and tears were streaming down my face. I still felt like electricity was flowing through me as His Holy presence left me. (I realized later that I had received forgiveness and the infilling of the Holy Spirit when I began attending church and reading my Bible.)
That happened seventeen years ago and as I recall all that happened that day and type this, I am crying. He is sooooo real! If you don’t know Him, but would like to, I would say to you, sincerely seek Him. Ask, search, seek. He is looking for a sincere heart and wants to make his home in you and transform your life. I was on my way to a devil’s hell and had rejected him, but in His mercy and grace, He brought me out of that and wrote my name in His Lamb’s Book of Life.
Today my husband and I have been married 20 yrs. and we attend church together and often volunteer, pray and study together. I feel very blessed to have such a Godly man as a husband.
Maybe you have read this and are thinking, ‘This lady is looney.’ Perhaps I am, but this is my testimony and I know in my heart of hearts, Jesus is TRUTH. Again, I would ask you, what would it take to change your life, to transform your mind?
Some have asked me if I think I’m somebody special because he appeared to me. The answer is no! I am dust mote on the sea of humanity but God in His mercy reached down and made me His daughter by the precious blood of His only begotten son, Jesus Christ. I am eternally grateful to Jesus and I am forever changed. Praise God!
I leave you with one of my favorite scriptures. Hebrews 4:12 KJV
For the Word of God is quick and powerful, and sharper than any two-edged sword. Piercing even to the dividing asunder of soul and spirit, of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intentions of the heart.
If you seek Jesus, read the Bible, particularly read the New Testament and ask Him into your heart to forgive you of your sins and have Him be the Lord of your life. You will be forever changed!
John 6:35 - And Jesus said unto them, I am the bread of life: he that cometh to me shall never hunger; and he that believeth on me shall never thirst.