Bible Discussion Thread

I awoke this moring looking for an answer to that which I have now spent almost 9 months seeking. I am tired and after reading this I was hoping someone had commented on this so that I would have a better understanding of his word because what I now doubt that I truly understand what God wants or is saying to me. I am lost, confused and its sad, but I am losing my faith and my body is becoming numb. I ask God is he prepring me for death, for I have lost everything and there appears to be no light in my dark tunnel called life. I don't blame anyone for my situation but me. I have begged God for mercy and Grace...maybe I am all out. Maybe God is not listening to me. I pray that he will show up in my life, for I can't contiunue to live this way. If you have a good personal relationship with God please pray for me...