When I was a little girl I thought I had a normal family at least it seemed that way to me. My dad was a minister , yet he was given to the demon of alcoholism. My mom worked like a dog to make ends meet. I had 3 other sisters that was older than me who quickly married so it pretty much left me alone . I grew up being to myself a lot. I got to know God because my father introduced him to us at a early age then I got to know him on my own as I became a young lady. Satan started the lie of telling me I wasn't good enough early on in life. I never felt comfortable around people so when I hung out with so called friends I started to drink just to feel like I could be comfortable in my own skin . Because when I drank I became someone else and not my quiet , awkward self. This went on for the first few years of my adult life. Then I started to date and the first real boyfriend I had was a monster from hell who cheated all the time and told me I would never be anything and made me feel like trash and not to mention the abuse I tried to hide from everyone ( I married this guy) So I spent many years in deep depression and isolated from life. I got a divorce and eventually married another guy pretty much just as bad as the first guy but God got me out of that relationship too.Then the devil put a spirit of rejection on my life that I had to fight through for many years. It was like every where I went no one seemed to like me no matter what. So I went further into depression. I spent a lot of time praying and fasting. I am 48 yrs old now and I just gotten to the place where I know who I am in Jesus and I feel good about my relationship with Christ. I don't drink and I have gotten rid of all those toxic friendships . I spend my time with my 2 daughters and the lord and I believe God for a kingdom marriage . God has been working in my life all along because through all that I went through he kept me safe and in my right mind.
When I was a little girl I thought I had a normal family at least it seemed that way to me. My dad was a minister , yet he was given to the demon of alcoholism. My mom worked like a dog to make ends meet. I had 3 other sisters that was older than me who quickly married so it pretty much left me alone . I grew up being to myself a lot. I got to know God because my father introduced him to us at a early age then I got to know him on my own as I became a young lady. Satan started the lie of telling me I wasn't good enough early on in life. I never felt comfortable around people so when I hung out with so called friends I started to drink just to feel like I could be comfortable in my own skin . Because when I drank I became someone else and not my quiet , awkward self. This went on for the first few years of my adult life. Then I started to date and the first real boyfriend I had was a monster from hell who cheated all the time and told me I would never be anything and made me feel like trash and not to mention the abuse I tried to hide from everyone ( I married this guy) So I spent many years in deep depression and isolated from life. I got a divorce and eventually married another guy pretty much just as bad as the first guy but God got me out of that relationship too.Then the devil put a spirit of rejection on my life that I had to fight through for many years. It was like every where I went no one seemed to like me no matter what. So I went further into depression. I spent a lot of time praying and fasting. I am 48 yrs old now and I just gotten to the place where I know who I am in Jesus and I feel good about my relationship with Christ. I don't drink and I have gotten rid of all those toxic friendships . I spend my time with my 2 daughters and the lord and I believe God for a kingdom marriage . God has been working in my life all along because through all that I went through he kept me safe and in my right mind.
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