Bible Discussion Thread

I have had clinical depression since I was 10. Nothing really has helped in treating it. I'm 34 now. This whole time I have been praying for God to take it from me. No one ever understands it so I am left to battle it alone. I can't even hear God. I have also been trying to overcome a meth addiction. I have been sober 15 days. I went to this one person I knew that was addicted to it and had gotten clean for help. He said he would help me and be there for me but when it came down to it, he was "too busy" to help me. I have had this kind of luck with everyone I have known. They say they'll be there but then they aren't. I'm always left to fight alone. Recently I was talking to some people about how they hear God because I don't know how. They said surrender and listen to your heart. How? I have been fighting my whole life to stay alive. How am I susposed to surrender? They made it sound so easy that there must be something wrong with me because I'm unable to comprehend how to do this. If I can't surrender and God wont help me, I won't be able to stay sober. I can't do this alone. I don't trust people. This drug is going to take my life if God doesn't step in because I am never ever ever going to ask for help from anyone ever again. I am all out of patience, all out of strength, and almost all out of hope. I am so certain God won't help me or ever answer any of my prayers and help me, I would bet my life on it. The only certainty in my life has ever been being let down.

I know you're feeling I prayed for God to heal me of OCD I have a cyst on my kidney I have kidney infections all the time in the more I pray it seems like nothing ever happens