I got your messages. Thankyou for praying for me. It really does help. I don't know how I'm going to fix this problem I have. I want to be healed from this depression that responds to nothing that I have had 20 years now. I developed an addiction trying to deal with this pain. I have tried quitting on my own but then my depression gets so much worse. I started using because that particular drug helps suppress your appetite and makes you happy. Or it used to make me happy, now its to function. I can't even hold down a job at this point. I really want to stop using but I don't want to gain weight because I'm not that attractive as it is. There is so much to my story, layers upon layers of problems one on top of the other. I know God heals people. I believe that. My issue is I can't get past the idea that that applies for everyone else but me. That is how I feel about God's unconditional love. That it applies to everyone but me. I know these are lies from satan but for some reason, no matter how hard I try to convince myself, my heart can't accept that I'm included. Thankyou again for reading this. Sometimes in my life, especially now, I feel invisible. This drug took my only relationships. One friend won't talk to me and my ex-we were together at the time, it destroyed our relationship. I was raised on performance based love. My parents never knew me. If I felt a way that was inconvenient for them (sad, angry, anything other than happy or content), I was told to go to my room or go somewhere private to express that emotion.
Flossie. I walked your path. Identical. You're going to survive it. First you must make the decision TO LIVE.
God peeled me just like an onion until all I had was pills and alcohol. I got invisible every day. I had no one but a little boy who I loved more than Death.
Every day I woke up to a Voice that said if you don't stop you'll leave him motherless.
I got dangerous mad one day and fought back. I decided I had to live!
I poured out all the booze, flushed all the drugs, cigs; and sat on the sofa to let detox kill my stupid life. I was gonna die or live!!!
I waited all day until dawn and went to bed exhausted. I waited the next day. Not one craving or sickness. The next day I realized thaT Jesus had delivered me from drugs!
I had a wild supernatural salvation experience a few days earlier, but I never even asked to be delivered. He did it for me and you can trust him to do it for you.
Just ask Him to deliver you. You pray this prayer every moment death whispers to you:
I am a blood bought child of the Most High God, Jesus Christ of Nazareth! In Jesus name I resist you, Death! Go into outer darkness. Lord God please send me angels to shield me from fiery darts
You're going have to rev up some most holy anger and keep saying it till the angels get there. You're being stalked by Death, Depression, Destroyer, Fears, more. They gang up on you because they think you'll do it. Even if your voice won't work...God can hear you screaming THE BLOOD OF JESUS in your mind.
Don't worry. God has angels that are BIG! You won't see them; but you may hear them in the yard throwing demons like lances.
I pray Jesus that you've already taken HIS HAND in yours and given your heart to Him forever. He is here to shield you and save your soul. No matter what, it will be worth it.
I receive you now as my Lord and Savior. I take myself off the throne of my heart and You are now in my Heart, my Lord Jesus.
We would still be plunged into the ditch. It means that no matter how hard we try to clean ourselves or wash what we do in our lives, we are still dirty and have no ability to remove every sin in our lives that's why we need the saving grace that Jesus provides. Only Jesus can deliver you from the power of addiction/shame/guilt/pain/suffering. His name is a strong tower that everyone can run into. He is so powerful that's why you see people change lives when they run to Him because He is someone who is an absolute one that we can rely on. You will not rely your life or lean on to something that is not strong enough that you will lose yourself in the process. Don't trust me but you can trust Jesus!
Prayer:
Lord Jesus, I lift up this person to you in your mighty name. Let Flossy experience your unconditional love full with joy and peace in this person's heart. Lord touch the heart of this person so that she will understand that love is not something to be earned but freely given by You. Father let this person experience an encounter with You to experience the true living GOD and not the one that people placed in their heads, the god that is not real or limited but the Jesus who has the power to save even the most wicked of souls. LORD I repent in this person's behalf on what this person did to you and plead the blood of Jesus all over this person. And right now every inch of demonic plans and activities I break them in Jesus name! Every path of addiction and curses laid upon this person be broken in Jesus name! Every spirit of depression/loneliness Be gone in to this person's life in Jesus name. Every works of the devil into this person's life be destroyed in the mighty name of Jesus. Holy Ghost fire be into this person's life in Jesus name! Let her experience healing and every spirit of hindrance/bondages be broken in Jesus name! Father may this person found the way in you. In Jesus name. Amen!
I might not understand what you are undergoing clearly in your life but when I was scrolling down some of the prayer requests in here, yours caught my eye. I want to say to you that what you are going through is not the end of it all. Everyone becomes depressed as a way of attack from the enemy. What the LORD wants for your life is to set you free! In the bible it says who the Son sets free is free indeed in John 8:36. Also the bible is clear with the instruction of those who call upon the name of the LORD will be saved! You are experiencing trouble on trusting on GOD because of the way you were raised in your home. For people who were raised in performance based house tends to do everything to earn the love of those who they want to experience love as well. We cannot blame the situation or the past for something that happened. What you can do is to start asking GOD for strength to forgive those people too. It is also said that Jesus died for all of our sins so that we can be forgiven and experience a life of eternity with Him. When we ask for forgiveness from Jesus, we can be confident to ask for the blood of Jesus to cover us as well thus cleansing us completely from everything that we had done including shame or any condemnation on our lives. No one comes to GOD except GOD came first to us, that's why we love GOD because He first loved us. No one can demonstrate how to love the right way unless someone shows it to them. It's applicable to everyone especially you! It's free that's why you can get it! If everyone needs to earn the love of GOD then all of us are dead before Him. No one is worthy to face Him and "NO ONE" can match the love that the Father needs because He is love already.
If there is a way for us to be saved apart from GOD then He is not a god at all. I would like to encourage you to read Job 9:25-31 if you can. It says in verse 30 that even if we wash ourselves with soap and clean our hands in verse 31 still we would be plunged
Flossy, Jesus died for everyone and that means you too. Saul was persecuting Christians. Participating in stonings. Yet when he accepted Jesus his whole world changed. This is what God does for everyone who comes to Him. Start reading the Bible and make the decision to believe that what God says is true. It's not based on a feeling. Just make the decision to trust Him.
Thanks so much for responding! I'll continue praying for you.
This may seem like a strange thing to ask, but can I challenge you to something? Can you help us pray and respond to others on Prayer Request page by writing a reply to others in this (by clicking the reply button underneath their comment)? There are many needs and people facing various challenges. Some of the challenges different people have different insight on as we each have different experience. Everyone has value and anyone who helps lift up others to encourage them is highly regarded and appreciated by the person. You're needed. They need you as much as you need others. If you help me with this I bet you will feel good doing it. You don't have to have all the answers by any means. Sometimes just someone listening and caring makes a world of difference to someone. I just ask you to try it. May God bless you!
God peeled me just like an onion until all I had was pills and alcohol. I got invisible every day. I had no one but a little boy who I loved more than Death.
Every day I woke up to a Voice that said if you don't stop you'll leave him motherless.
I got dangerous mad one day and fought back. I decided I had to live!
I poured out all the booze, flushed all the drugs, cigs; and sat on the sofa to let detox kill my stupid life. I was gonna die or live!!!
I waited all day until dawn and went to bed exhausted. I waited the next day. Not one craving or sickness. The next day I realized thaT Jesus had delivered me from drugs!
I had a wild supernatural salvation experience a few days earlier, but I never even asked to be delivered. He did it for me and you can trust him to do it for you.
Just ask Him to deliver you. You pray this prayer every moment death whispers to you:
I am a blood bought child of the Most High God, Jesus Christ of Nazareth! In Jesus name I resist you, Death! Go into outer darkness. Lord God please send me angels to shield me from fiery darts
You're going have to rev up some most holy anger and keep saying it till the angels get there. You're being stalked by Death, Depression, Destroyer, Fears, more. They gang up on you because they think you'll do it. Even if your voice won't work...God can hear you screaming THE BLOOD OF JESUS in your mind.
Don't worry. God has angels that are BIG! You won't see them; but you may hear them in the yard throwing demons like lances.
I pray Jesus that you've already taken HIS HAND in yours and given your heart to Him forever. He is here to shield you and save your soul. No matter what, it will be worth it.
I receive you now as my Lord and Savior. I take myself off the throne of my heart and You are now in my Heart, my Lord Jesus.
I receive your HOLY SPIRIT now
We would still be plunged into the ditch. It means that no matter how hard we try to clean ourselves or wash what we do in our lives, we are still dirty and have no ability to remove every sin in our lives that's why we need the saving grace that Jesus provides. Only Jesus can deliver you from the power of addiction/shame/guilt/pain/suffering. His name is a strong tower that everyone can run into. He is so powerful that's why you see people change lives when they run to Him because He is someone who is an absolute one that we can rely on. You will not rely your life or lean on to something that is not strong enough that you will lose yourself in the process. Don't trust me but you can trust Jesus!
Prayer:
Lord Jesus, I lift up this person to you in your mighty name. Let Flossy experience your unconditional love full with joy and peace in this person's heart. Lord touch the heart of this person so that she will understand that love is not something to be earned but freely given by You. Father let this person experience an encounter with You to experience the true living GOD and not the one that people placed in their heads, the god that is not real or limited but the Jesus who has the power to save even the most wicked of souls. LORD I repent in this person's behalf on what this person did to you and plead the blood of Jesus all over this person. And right now every inch of demonic plans and activities I break them in Jesus name! Every path of addiction and curses laid upon this person be broken in Jesus name! Every spirit of depression/loneliness Be gone in to this person's life in Jesus name. Every works of the devil into this person's life be destroyed in the mighty name of Jesus. Holy Ghost fire be into this person's life in Jesus name! Let her experience healing and every spirit of hindrance/bondages be broken in Jesus name! Father may this person found the way in you. In Jesus name. Amen!
I might not understand what you are undergoing clearly in your life but when I was scrolling down some of the prayer requests in here, yours caught my eye. I want to say to you that what you are going through is not the end of it all. Everyone becomes depressed as a way of attack from the enemy. What the LORD wants for your life is to set you free! In the bible it says who the Son sets free is free indeed in John 8:36. Also the bible is clear with the instruction of those who call upon the name of the LORD will be saved! You are experiencing trouble on trusting on GOD because of the way you were raised in your home. For people who were raised in performance based house tends to do everything to earn the love of those who they want to experience love as well. We cannot blame the situation or the past for something that happened. What you can do is to start asking GOD for strength to forgive those people too. It is also said that Jesus died for all of our sins so that we can be forgiven and experience a life of eternity with Him. When we ask for forgiveness from Jesus, we can be confident to ask for the blood of Jesus to cover us as well thus cleansing us completely from everything that we had done including shame or any condemnation on our lives. No one comes to GOD except GOD came first to us, that's why we love GOD because He first loved us. No one can demonstrate how to love the right way unless someone shows it to them. It's applicable to everyone especially you! It's free that's why you can get it! If everyone needs to earn the love of GOD then all of us are dead before Him. No one is worthy to face Him and "NO ONE" can match the love that the Father needs because He is love already.
If there is a way for us to be saved apart from GOD then He is not a god at all. I would like to encourage you to read Job 9:25-31 if you can. It says in verse 30 that even if we wash ourselves with soap and clean our hands in verse 31 still we would be plunged
Thanks so much for responding! I'll continue praying for you.
This may seem like a strange thing to ask, but can I challenge you to something? Can you help us pray and respond to others on Prayer Request page by writing a reply to others in this (by clicking the reply button underneath their comment)? There are many needs and people facing various challenges. Some of the challenges different people have different insight on as we each have different experience. Everyone has value and anyone who helps lift up others to encourage them is highly regarded and appreciated by the person. You're needed. They need you as much as you need others. If you help me with this I bet you will feel good doing it. You don't have to have all the answers by any means. Sometimes just someone listening and caring makes a world of difference to someone. I just ask you to try it. May God bless you!
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