God won't give us more than we can handle. Thats a lie. I can't handle what I have been living with for 20 years now. People have been nothing but cruel to me. I have been praying to God for 20 years now and have gotten no answer. I have never felt God's unconditional love. I have been let down so many times I am afraid to hope. I have to kill myself. I really don't want to but I have to. I'm not important enough to be saved. God has made that crystal clear to me. God doesn't love me. He never did. I have been there with my heart wide open for God to just ignore me and turn away. I'm killing myself because God never loved me. He ignores me and rejects me. This will never get better. I wish He didn't make me nice but He did. I hope He's happy now that I'm taking my life tonight. God is finally going to get what He wanted.
I feel your pain, I was in the same spot you are in right now, but I was 30 years praying without answers. I hear satan in your pain, you have been listening to the wrong voice, I also know this from experience. I started REALLY searching for God, 7 years ago and I stand here today walking very close to God and Jesus, it has been a wonderful experience, God answers prayers of His children. Have you truly excepted Jesus into your life and heart? I thought I had for 30 years, I said the sinners prayer at least once a day for those years, all I can do for you is to pray God will soften your heart so the Holy Spirit can come into your heart. You need to preserve, if you kill yourself you are guaranteeing that you are going to hell, it makes me sad to think that is where you want to spend forever,
Heavenly Father, I am on my knees for this lost soul Father, I am asking you, Father to soften her heart, I cry out to You Lord, send your Holy Spirit to her heart. I also ask you Jesus to rebuke the devil that has control of her, in Your beautiful and Glorious name, Amen. So be it.
I have tried to let Jesus into my heart but I can't. Its like I can't describe it. I feel like God's unconditional love is for everyone but me and Jesus can come into everyone else's heart but mine. It sounds silly to even say_ that I am the exception. I don't even want to believe that. But I can't open my heart for some reason. I don't know how. I really want Him to come in but I don't know how to open my heart. I'm not mad at God or anything. I'm afraid if I can't get it open I will never be able to be saved. I desperately want to believe that He died for me too and I can comprehend it in my mind but I don't know how to open my heart. Please pray that God can help me open my heart. With my will, I want my heart open. I don't know what else to do. Please pray that God will save me.
Please know that God loves you! He sent His begotten son to die just for you. Even if noone ever lived on the earth but you, God still would have sent Jesus to die just for you. All you have to do to have a relationship with Jesus is ask Him into your heart and believe that He died on the cross and rose the 3rd day. Thats it! FAITH + nothing= SAVED! JESUS loves YOU fiercely. He wants a relationship with you soo badly. The bible says that NOTHING can separate us from the Love of God, not heaven, not even HELL, nothing in between. Jesus just wants a relationship with you. He wants to be your best friend. You dont need to fancy language or religion or song and dance. Just talk to Him, sing to Him from your heart, cry to Him. Jesus said, Cast your cares upon me, I will give you rest. My yoke is easy. The devil is a liar! I come against his lies! He is lying to you saying that you arent worthy. That is a lie! Friend, you ARE WORTHY, you are loved! Jesus bought us with His own blood. We are His as long as we ask. Its a free gift. If that isnt love, i dont know what is. Do not listen to the devil's lie. The bible says the devil seeks to kill and destroy. But Jesus came to give us life. I speak life into you in the mighty name of Jesus! Receive Him. Call out His name! Call out Jesus. He is in your midst. He is in your corner. He is ready to take you in His warm embrace. Do not harm yourself. God Has to be the one to decide when your time is up, not you. I urge you to get a King James Bible and read it every day. Your mind will renew and your spirit will refresh. We are told to renew our minds daily. That way the devil loses his strong hold. Jesus wants to free you from bondage. Receive Him. All you have to do is ask. "Behold, I stand at the door and knock." You are loved.
I know EXACTLY how you feel. My life was similar to yours. I have been abused, used, rejected, by family and men that supposedly " loved" me. I was a teen mom with no support from my family. I also tried committing suicide, only to have my ex mother in law walk in on me. I lived a hopeless life for 40 years!!!! And then Jesus stepped into my life. Let me tell you about my life now after receiving Jesus in 2006! He revived a dream in me that I thought would never happen, and that was to go to college. In 2007 he showed me in a dream that I would go to school. That happened in 2014!! Yes, seven years after he gave me my dream! In those seven years, my husband was diagnosed with MS and lost his job, my teenage daughter was rebelling and moved in with my parents, my mother in law was diagnosed with pulmonary fibrosis of the lungs and I became a caregiver to her and my husband, while still working! I lost my job in 2013 a week before Thanksgiving!! Yes... all this could have made me give up the dream of going to school, but instead it fueled my need for Jesus EVERYDAY!!! I attended school at the age of 40 years old for 6 years and I have three degrees! I finished my Master's this past May and I did it debt free because it is true! Where he guides, he provides! I tell you this because I understand the hard days, the abusive days, the hopeless days, but if you hold fast to Jesus and his words and promises... HE WILL GIVE YOU THE LIFE HE CREATED YOU FOR!!! HE LOVES YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW!!! If I would have successfully committed suicide when I was 19, I would have never known how great my life is turning out to be!!!! Please DO NOT GIVE UP!!!! YOU ARE HERE FOR A REASON AND HAVE A PURPOSE IN THIS LIFE TO ACTUALLY LIVE AND NOT JUST SURVIVE!!!!! I hope my post encourages you that if God can do this for me, than know that HE CAN FO IT FOR YOU!!!!!
You know that Christian saying, " Jesus takes your mess and makes it your message"? Well... here's mine
Satan has lied to you for 20 years, He is a thief and Gods word says that Satan only comes to lie and kill and destroy! I have prayed that God reveal his love to you now, Rebuke the devourer and he will flee now in the name of Jesus! Jesus is the truth and he loves you! And I love you!
Flossy, what you have just said is very serious! You do not want to take your own life! I can fully understand how you feel because I have felt the same way before and it is depression. God has answered my prayers before so I know very well he does! I know you do not know me but I am just a old Tennessee boy 70 years old now but please listen to me when I say do not do this, do not take your own life! I can fully understand how you could feel that no one cares but that is not true because I do! I care about you and want the best for you and I have never met you in my life but I do care about you because you are human being just like me! Flossy, I have had God answer one of my prayers one time when he and only him could have known I even had a problem and I prayed to him and in 5 min. he fixed it! no one but Him could have know about the problem I had right then. I am telling you the Gods honest truth! He is real! Believe me he is real! I hope this helps a little anyway and I so feel your pain because I have been there myself more than once! Pleas for me do not kill yourself! Please answer me!
Wait for the Lord. Be strong and let your heat take courage, wait for the Lord.
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Even though you feel trapped and don't see anyway out, please don't give up. There's more to it. Situations change, perspectives change.
How do I know this? Because at one point I wanted to end things too and planned to do so. Even though emotions and pain seem at 100/100 level I'm so glad I waited, because things DID change. Very quickly too. Just give it another day, another week. If I hadn't waited it would have been such a waste, because shortly after new positive things happened in my life. But I didn't know that at the time, I too, thought I was stuck, trapped, with no way out, blamed others, blamed God. But part of the problem was my own thinking. I let satan deceive me. I believed a lie that I was trapped, but I was only trapped by my own thinking and false assumptions. Seeking help through pastors, mentors, counselors helped expose my false assumptions and helped me set more healthy expectations. I sought to read the scripture with a fresh set of eyes and understanding. I found out that God does love me, forgives me, and is there for me. God loves you, forgives you, and is there for you too, even though you don't currently believe it.
Thank you for sharing your heavy heart. Please know that people do care and we will be praying for you and would like to support you here on this forum if you allow them to. Can you at least call the hotline and let someone hear to your story and let them support you? 888-864-6884. It's a Christian minister you can call/text. Other numbers as a backup: 1-800-273-8255, 1-800-827-7571.
Please don't rush to anything, because myself and so many others have been in a similar place of extreme hurt in life, but waited, and positive things DID happen just right around the corner. Some of our testimonies are available on this site for you to read: Link
Can you please respond when you get this? Awaiting your reply...
Heavenly Father, I am on my knees for this lost soul Father, I am asking you, Father to soften her heart, I cry out to You Lord, send your Holy Spirit to her heart. I also ask you Jesus to rebuke the devil that has control of her, in Your beautiful and Glorious name, Amen. So be it.
I know EXACTLY how you feel. My life was similar to yours. I have been abused, used, rejected, by family and men that supposedly " loved" me. I was a teen mom with no support from my family. I also tried committing suicide, only to have my ex mother in law walk in on me. I lived a hopeless life for 40 years!!!! And then Jesus stepped into my life. Let me tell you about my life now after receiving Jesus in 2006! He revived a dream in me that I thought would never happen, and that was to go to college. In 2007 he showed me in a dream that I would go to school. That happened in 2014!! Yes, seven years after he gave me my dream! In those seven years, my husband was diagnosed with MS and lost his job, my teenage daughter was rebelling and moved in with my parents, my mother in law was diagnosed with pulmonary fibrosis of the lungs and I became a caregiver to her and my husband, while still working! I lost my job in 2013 a week before Thanksgiving!! Yes... all this could have made me give up the dream of going to school, but instead it fueled my need for Jesus EVERYDAY!!! I attended school at the age of 40 years old for 6 years and I have three degrees! I finished my Master's this past May and I did it debt free because it is true! Where he guides, he provides! I tell you this because I understand the hard days, the abusive days, the hopeless days, but if you hold fast to Jesus and his words and promises... HE WILL GIVE YOU THE LIFE HE CREATED YOU FOR!!! HE LOVES YOU MORE THAN YOU KNOW!!! If I would have successfully committed suicide when I was 19, I would have never known how great my life is turning out to be!!!! Please DO NOT GIVE UP!!!! YOU ARE HERE FOR A REASON AND HAVE A PURPOSE IN THIS LIFE TO ACTUALLY LIVE AND NOT JUST SURVIVE!!!!! I hope my post encourages you that if God can do this for me, than know that HE CAN FO IT FOR YOU!!!!!
You know that Christian saying, " Jesus takes your mess and makes it your message"? Well... here's mine
Psalm 27:14
Wait for the Lord. Be strong and let your heat take courage, wait for the Lord.
Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Even though you feel trapped and don't see anyway out, please don't give up. There's more to it. Situations change, perspectives change.
How do I know this? Because at one point I wanted to end things too and planned to do so. Even though emotions and pain seem at 100/100 level I'm so glad I waited, because things DID change. Very quickly too. Just give it another day, another week. If I hadn't waited it would have been such a waste, because shortly after new positive things happened in my life. But I didn't know that at the time, I too, thought I was stuck, trapped, with no way out, blamed others, blamed God. But part of the problem was my own thinking. I let satan deceive me. I believed a lie that I was trapped, but I was only trapped by my own thinking and false assumptions. Seeking help through pastors, mentors, counselors helped expose my false assumptions and helped me set more healthy expectations. I sought to read the scripture with a fresh set of eyes and understanding. I found out that God does love me, forgives me, and is there for me. God loves you, forgives you, and is there for you too, even though you don't currently believe it.
Thank you for sharing your heavy heart. Please know that people do care and we will be praying for you and would like to support you here on this forum if you allow them to. Can you at least call the hotline and let someone hear to your story and let them support you? 888-864-6884. It's a Christian minister you can call/text. Other numbers as a backup: 1-800-273-8255, 1-800-827-7571.
Please don't rush to anything, because myself and so many others have been in a similar place of extreme hurt in life, but waited, and positive things DID happen just right around the corner. Some of our testimonies are available on this site for you to read: Link
Can you please respond when you get this? Awaiting your reply...
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