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Testimony: Years-of-anxiety-depression-and-low-self-esteem
Anonymous testimony "Years-of-anxiety-depression-and-low-self-esteem" on 3/25/2013, 7:36am...
It started from when I was a child and I was bullied as a child because I had really crooked teeth so the kids would make fun of me about it. I was also a child that had many problems with fear. When I got to high school I had trouble making friends, because I always felt that I didn’t belong and had a poor self image. I could not even look in the mirror because I would see the person that others saw me as.
I felt very lonely, stopped talking and couldn’t open up to people because I started feeling scared of social situations. I then developed depression and was bed ridden for a long time. Then I started turning to alcohol to make me feel less anxious and started smoking and when I drank I felt calm and confident, but then I started relying on that to make me feel less sad and have done a lot of things that I regret because I have wanted to block out reality. I also smoke weed sometimes too but it wasn’t really my thing. I also had awful self hating thoughts about myself and in my mind I feel like people are laughing at me or saying things about me and at work I feel like running away because I feel so uncomfortable.
I have come to God a couple of other time but doubt always came in my mind. But about 6 months again I fully accepted Jesus and told him that I want to live my life for him and he is helping me even when things look bleak.
I tried to quit smoking on my own about 6 times and I told him to take that sin and I haven’t had one for 3 months. Also a problem with alcohol that I have had a problem getting rid of, I prayed and told him I want be free from this sin.
I have also felt better in my spirit, I am now waiting to see more of God’s glory.