Testimony: Unsaved Believer

Julie's testimony "Unsaved Believer" on 8/25/2015, 7:12am...

I've always believed in God, but never committed to him. I got in my first relationship at 15 became a mother of two by 19. Never married him. At 22 I broke it off after a lot of physical abuse and him being an alcoholic. got to where I hated the sight of him.

Anyways fast forward got my stuff together education, career, met a good saved man. Married at 24 had a miscarriage at 27, his father got sick the same year. He started a business. A lot going on. His father died, three months later our daughter is born. Life goes on... Hectic. Marriage gets strained, we get distant, distracted and dis engaged. A lot of hurt, jealousy and years go by. Same ol stuff.

Grand daughter is born from my first daughter. Took care of her for a year and a half while mommy parties and puts more strain on the marriage. My job was stressful esp. When you have immature ppl making it more stressful.

Finally it hit a breaking point. Went into a major depression, almost blew my head off, the only reason I didn't was because I didn't want to go to hell. Outta the blue my ex step sister comes unannounced into town. She's quite older then me, became a reglious woman. Which was amazing in itself. Thirty years later she praying for me. Anyways she comes into town, her and her husband and my mother calls me and tells me surprised that W is at her house. Go over there and she was praying with my step father who was sick at the time. She ask to speak to me privately and we went in my moms bedroom. Had some discussion about how my life was outta control and me wanting to commit suicide. Anyways she starts praying for me asking God to save me. A voice in my head ( now I know was satan) was clouding my mind and I finally in my mind asking Jesus to come and save me. Over and over while she's praying I'm saying this. Finally I felt Jesus (physically) enter my heart. I had just gotten saved! I didn't change overnight, but I tell you my life is so great.

Three years later my marriage is where it always needed to be. I'm gonna tell you there were MANY times satan tried to pull me back. A lot of problems came within a year after I got saved. But this time I knew it was satan and apparently he knew that God was pulling me and satan tried to pull me too. Ultimately God won, he always will. But it was a struggle.

This is a short version, I tell you I went through some really bad trails, but God held onto me even when I failed him he didn't left go of me. So years ago I could tell you I was saved but I wasn't. I know without a doubt I am now. Thank God above for everything he's done for me and not giving up on me. Jesus loves all of us and he paid the ultimate price for us, give your life to him. I am fulfilled now, before there was always something missing. I've always heard ppl talk about it and just didn't feel it. That' was satan deceiving me, I am a child of God and Jesus loves me!!! He loves me. Wow. That's humbling to me. If ppl realized how much Jesus loves us....makes me happy. God bless and if you know someone who isn't saved pray to God that he leads your path to work through you to bring ppl to him. Peace.

 

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