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Testimony: Suicide Not And My Personal Experience
mosjos's testimony "Suicide Not And My Personal Experience" on 10/13/2013, 6:23pm...
Suicide note and my personal Experience
1 Corin 2: 15. But he that is spiritual judgeth all things, yet he himself is judged of no man. I had a very very bitter experience renting out one of my house portion to a Leading Christian College Woman Teacher. Even she does events management . A Professor and head of department of Engineering college recommended her for the portion where he stayed. I was so happy as she was hailing from Kanyakumari / Nagercoil my native town and a member Nagercoil Home Church. She gave a Cheque and it bounced . She never paid the rent. Strangely we found sound from the locked house . Then we found her son getting into the house through the balcony window followed by the mother really unfortunate and shameful. Why all this it is because she owes money to so many people. We are not bothered when we asked for the rent arrears and the advance due she directly approached the Police and logged a complaint against me unfortunate. A Police man came to my house and told me there is a complaint against me and that I have to meet the Woman Police officer for enquiry. When I had been to the Police station that officer talked to me very roughly as if I harassed a honest and reputed College teacher. That Smiling lady was sitting in front of the officer. I was standing patiently. Then the Woman Police officer told me I have seen you somewhere. I immediately told her I never had been to the police station and I will be the last person to go to the police station. She immediately retorted no I have definitely seen you in a years time. I immediately told may be on the road. She confirmed and said I have seen you in the first main road near the temple and told me about my name in the suicide note. Then only I recollected it was the time the auto man committed suicide. “1 Corin 11: 31. For if we would judge ourselves, we should not be judged”. Then she said sorry please take you seat and asked about my Mosjos Healthcare Trust activities and told she is satisfied and turning to the lady “ you are at fault give it writing that you will pay the money in stipulated time”. But she has not paid me yet.
I remembered what happened just two years back I used to call one particular Auto driver since he was living very close to my house. His wife used to attend our Mosjos Mission Church. Their Family life is not to the expectation .He is a disciplined automan and never try to exploit people in the auto fare. He enjoys reading book. His income from the Auto is not much. The greedy wife always torturing for money though she used to prepare hot food specifically for him and enjoys that. One day when I was travelling with him he told me all his personal stories. I gave him a book written by me in Tamil “I have Chosen you”. I told him for peace of mind try to attend the church service but he was not very particular about that. But one day he accompanied me to Church. He explained me Christianity is good and it is practical way of life but unfortunately most of the people who follow Christianity is not true and sincere and they are leading bad and miserable life in the same way as others. That is the reason he is not attending the Church Service. I told Him politely that is the reason I request him to come to the church where the preacher will explain the contents of the bible words. We should not be the judges God will take care of it and it is his business. However he is not satisfied. As days go by one day I took him to an office, at that time also he again asked me about Jesus Christ. On return he came to my house and sitting in the front hall he was asking so many questions I patently replied him. He told me tomorrow is my Wedding day immediately I took one brand new stainless steel vessel and presented him. He said “tomorrow I will come with my wife then you give” and left that was the last time I have seen him alive. Next day people from the back side came to my wife and told that the Auto Man found hanging and no one dared to enter into the house and to help him. . Even the Dada’s the so called heros of the spot not willing to enter into the house. My wife immediately rushed to the spot and the first person tried to lift the body by the time every thing is over. The next day there was call from the Police station. I am bit afraid as I had not been to any police station for any reason except, writing letters when there was a theft in my Industry. I told them only for the material lost and asked them not to torture the watchman. I skipped going to the Police Station as I felt probably what my wife done was wrong for that reason they are calling me. I prayed to God our Saviour Lord Jesus Christ for His divine protection. Next day morning when the body came after postmortem again there was a call from the same Police woman from the spot. I had been there and immediately she asked me to go through the letter. My heart beat increased double speed I could not able to cool my self I am scolding on my own self for doing social work and helping people now they have put me into problem dragging me to the police. Praising the lord with fear I opened the letter and gone through the contents at that time the letters are not clearly visible out of fear. But however I managed to read the message it is nothing but a certificate about me praising for all the advices and finally asking the god if at all there was a rebirth he wished to be my son/ brother. I was astonished and thanked our Lord for helping me to come out of the problem. Only Our Living GOd and Saviour of the World can Save us in critical moment.
Ps.22: 5. They cried unto thee, and were delivered: they trusted in thee, and were not confounded. Ps.119: 6. Then shall I not be ashamed, when I have respect unto all thy commandments.
REV.MOSES JUSTIN NIRMALKUMAR
Mosjos Mission Ministry, 16,Moses Ave,
First Main Road, Kamaraj Nager, Madras 600041. Tamilnadu INDIA.