Testimony: Somebody Pray For Me

Anonymous testimony "Somebody Pray For Me" on 9/26/2013, 4:39pm...

First off I want to say that I grew up in a God fearing home who believed in Christ Jesus my mom always prayed and never gave up. Just a quick briefly story that my mom shared with me about her faith in God. She could not have kids. Her and my dad had been married for 10 years and my mom just could not conceive, so she saw a doctor and the told doctors told her that they were going to help her have children if it's the last thing they do. Well shortly after they came back in the room and told her that there was nothing else that they can do. My mom said that she left that doctors office in tears because she always wanted kids. So after this event here my mom kept praying and trusting God, 10 years went by but she never gave up. She also told me that throughout those 10 years she asked God for three kids, she asked him for 2 boys and a girl and for the two boys to be older then the baby girl. God gave her just what she asked for. My mom said that she made a commitment with God, which was if he answered her prayers and give her the three kids she asked for. That she will give us back to him. Well today I have a older brother and a younger sister, and I'm the middle child (boy). So no matter what anyone try to tell me I know God is real and he does answer prayers. But it doesn't end here. Well my life has been great so far, but I would go to church with my brother, sister, and mom and then come home to my father who would teach us how to have "fun" in the world. Well that fun life in the world became our main life


To make this long story short, us three children that was prayed for so hard for started loving the world we began listening to the music the lying cheating stealing, drugs, but if course my mom didn't know we were doing these things only our dad. So back then I began noticing that I was bisexual and felt like I was headed down hill and becoming fully gay, I knew it was wrong because it's not how I was raised. Often times I would pray to God in the shower asking him to please change me because I want to enjoy life the right way and live for him. But i always found myself doing the same things I were doing before, which was smoking, going to gay clubs, have all the boys so I was ofen told. I kinda started to love that life. And I said to myself that I prayed about it and if God doesn't change me then it means I'm not broken, I mean I couldn't help it anyway I though I was born that way Girls were becoming less attractive to me. I started doing things I said I will never do like going to gay clubs, which I did or getting to addicted to that lifestyle which I did. So with my life being great to me I completely turned my back on God. Yeah scary thing but I did I stopped going to church, I stopped paying my tythes and offering , I didn't even say my prayers in the morning or at night anymore, most of the time was because I was either too drunk or high on drugs. My mom noticed the change in me because I wouldn't come home for days at a time well living this lifestyle for about 5 months I decided to get tested and back on June 25th 2013 I was diagnosed HIV+, I went and got tested high and when the doctors asked me do I sleep with men I proudly said yes. Then he told me my results and my heart stopped, skipped a beat and I didn't even know what to do at that point. I was so high the first question I asked him was "will I still be able to smoke"? He told me yes and that I wasn't going to die he said he know I'll be alright. But I didn't trust him at all. So I left went home and just cried asking God why, why would he let this happen to me.


The next I couldn't focus at work no more and ended up getting fired, I prayed to god and asked him to help me I need him. After those countless hours and days of praying , I finally started feeling better and like a change was coming. I changed my life around which I'm still in the process of doing. But I stopped living the gay life even thought that was hard. Instead of praying and asking God to heal me, I prayed and asked him to forgive me and to deliver me from all demonic and homosexual spirits. I told God that I would rather live with any disease on this earth, rather then die and loose my soul. The devil is still fighting me, before I stated meds he devil told me that the mess wasn't going to be affordable and that I will be dead soon. He often made me believe that it was nothing wrong with being gay because other people are gay and young gay people have died and went to heaven. Which I know is a lie... But as I prayed everyday more then once a day I began to feel his presence, one day on my once dark path I old myself that I was going to kill myself because I have the point in living and that Jesus doesn't care about what happens to me. Well that day was the first time I heard the hold spirit speak to me.right after I said that in my head, there was a voice that I didn't hear in my mind but I fled and heard that voice in my heart and it said "life is worth the living because he lives" at that very moment and even now as I write this I feel his presence. I know is with me and will never leave me nor forsake me. My next pray is that he completely head me of HIV so I can tell the entire world that God is real and the world shall believe me. Also on my new Journey I was watching Aquila Nash on TV and she was prophesing to the people that was watching her and while she was speaking I said to myself "God you're speaking though her telling her that other people with cancer or another problem is healed, why haven't you spoken to her about me"? That's what I asked God inside my head and after I thought that she spoke in TV and said there is a young man who have a blood condition she said it doesn't matter how it got there but god is going to heal you" at that moment I felt the spirit of God all over meant I began to praise him for what he's going to do. God is so good to me even though the mist of my storm he never left me. And I'm still struggling with smoking and listening to all this worldly music, so please I'm asking that you guys pray for me. My CD4 count never went below 355 and the HIV is now undetectable. I'm doing great with the meds. But I don't accept HIV not even a little. And I'm just waiting until God heals me. Please those if you that know the power of prayer please pray for me my name is Joshua 19 years old. Thank you

 

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