King James Bible
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Testimony: Rock Bottom
Anonymous testimony "Rock Bottom" on 5/04/2014, 3:57pm...
I grew up in a Christian family, so I believed I was Christian. As a child I had severe OCD (obsessive-compulsive disorder). Random curse words and sexual images came my head all hours of the day. I tried to fight them but starting in 8th grade I decided to give into them. The real problem came when I entered high school. In 9th grade I made friends...with the wrong people. I knew people who did drugs like heroine, cocaine, weed and others. Even though I didn't do drugs with them I was still friends with them. I then developed a potty mouth. Nothing that came from my mouth was worth praise.
I fell into a deep depression. I was horrible to others around me and lied to my family and "friends". I would talk to God sometimes but only when I was in trouble or sad. I then transferred from that school to a public school which was much worst. Sophomore year I didn't hang out with people who did drugs but I still wasn't clean. I still had a potty mouth and my OCD got worst and it was horrible. Then came Junior year, when I made the Varsity Cheer team. All of them were popular and I wanted to be of that higher so I followed them. I then decided whatever I'm young I can do whatever I want. I then turned to drugs.I snuck out. I partied I drank alcohol and I ended up sleeping in a car to avoid being taken advantage of.
Later that same week I went to a birthday party. We went out to eat and let's just say the crowd that was there wasn't who I needed to be around. The stole alcohol from the place we ate at then we got back to her house. This was when things got out of hand. They decided to change the rocks at my school. Me, being stupid, thought we were going to walmart and buying junk food. On the way we did drugs and then they stopped to cover the license plate. When at the school we noticed headlights in the distance. They all ran back and drove but got pulled over. The police officer ordered us all to get out the car. We sat on the curb while he searched the vehicle. He saw the license plate covered and he found two packets of weed. He called all of ours parents and thats when I knew I needed a change in my life. This whole drugs, alcohol, and police matter all flashed right before my eyes. This all happened in a matter of 3 months.
Rather than turning back to my old ways I picked up the bible that was underneath my bed. It was covered in dust and I opened it and started to read. After a while I realized that all the stuff I was doing wasn't what God called me to do I decided to make things right. I gave my life to Christ ironically Easter week. I asked God to help with my bad thoughts and now I rarely get them anymore, I notice whenever I don't have faith I get them back.I forgave all the people I was holding grudges against, and I told the truth to my Coach and the athletic director. 3 weeks have passed and I'm still suffering the consequences of my actions but I always remember this is the worst it gets because the pain that I've been feeling can't compare to the joy that's coming.
Even though I mess up sometimes I still know that God loves me and that I'm forgiven. I read my bible everyday when I wake up in the morning, before I go to school after I get home from school before I go to bed and I even give my sister bible verses before she goes to school. I've learned that the partying, the drugs, the drinking it's not worth it. It's pointless. I was doing all of this for what? Just to be popular? If it cost risking your life and your freedom just to be able to talk to a person that's "relevant" in high school it's not worth it. All the "friends" I made don't talk to me anymore and I've returned to being that nerd girl but it's cool to me. I started talking to my old friend again,who is Christian too, and I didn't realize that she was my only true friend. She didn't leave me when I was at low points in my life and she accepted me the way I was but most importantly she showed me God's unfailing love. Now at 17 which is pretty young to being going through all this I can say proudly that I never want to go back to that depressing, pagan lifestyle ever again. I now hope to be baptized sometime this year.