Testimony: Pray-for-me

anonymous's testimony "Pray-for-me" on 3/25/2013, 7:35pm...

I'm 15 years old and I've been battling with pornography and low self esteem for 3 to 4 years now I believe. I am a pastor's daughter and no one will ever understand the guilt I feel when having to stand on God's stage and sing in church choir like I haven't done anything wrong.
Everyone looks at me and just see a happy girl but they don't know how much hurt and guilt this little girl is carrying deep down inside. Pornography has affected me in every way possible I cry so much, I'm always angry at everyone for no reason at all.
I pray all the time and ask God for forgiveness but I'm always running back and sometimes I try to forget about God so I won't have to feel guilty anymore but I think that when everything in my conscience eats me alive.
I would look at those teenage girls and envy them because they are not going through what I'm going through.
But today has been a very miserable day for me and I really don't want to live that life anymore please keep me in your prayer its much more than that but I'm ending it here.

 

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