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Testimony: 'perfect Life?' Think Again
Hope's testimony "'perfect Life?' Think Again" on 2/16/2014, 10:37pm...
Well, i don't really know where to begin. people say its all about age but once you really start reading and getting more into it, you see there are kids that are 4 and 11 year olds that are fighting demons that some adults will never have to face. so in that case don't let my age full you.(I'm 14 btw).
As most of you i grew up in a 'perfect Christian home'. my parents couldn't have done it better. They are youth pastors and treat there youth like there own, i guess theres an advantage in that having friends over all the time, well there's also the downside to it, feeling like your parents would much rather love the youth then you, you fill like your on the sidelines, like they don't care. It gets to the point you get extremely jealous and wish you would have never even met them. But then you still have to be the perfect one, being the youth pastors kid, your kinda like the leader of the group, the one who's supposed to be perfect, never mess up because if you make one wrong move all they have to do is well if you can go smoke or drink then so can i. and you can't even dare try to stop them cause then your a hypocrite. For me being only 14 and in 9th grade(yes i'm young for my age)i shouldn't have to go through the things i've went through and felt. no one my age or even in high school should have to go through it, it tells you just how bad this world has gotten.
at the age of 12 i had my first shot started drinking, then it went to smoking. It all went back to where i didn't want to be the weird kid that no one liked. I walked alone, sat alone, and didn't talk to anyone. I have major trust issues that god will one day help me with. I don't trust people but when i do i always get screwed over. Ive had my heart broken and a lot of you will read this and go no way can a 14 year old girl in 9th grade even know what the word love means, well yeah its possible. I have walked away from god many times and i always come crawling back to him begging him to be forgiven. He's the only one who hasn't left.
I don't know if this will even get read, but if it does then who ever i can help or encourage then its worth it. Just know even when you feel like no one understands and you're alone just know your never alone and some one is always going through something similar to you. well if i can say anything that would help anyone, its just to chose wisely on who your friends are it don't matter how strong your walk with god is, unless he sent you there or to them you with fall just like the rest of them, and don't make someone your number one only god can fill that spot.
my old man always tells me this ;god is a jealous god, he will bring all of your relationship below him at any cost' even though i hate this a lot of the time its true. god will never give you something you cant handle. if you just trust in him, and make him #1 everything else will fall into place.