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Testimony: Painfull-and-suffering-to-accepted-jesus-christ-very-hard-way
Painfull Newcomer's testimony "Painfull-and-suffering-to-accepted-jesus-christ-very-hard-way" on 3/20/2013, 10:18pm...
My name is "Hidden" and comes from kota kinabalu sabah east malaysia borneo island. I grew up and my father was Muslim; he already went twice to Mecca for pilgrimage. My mother had died when I got the age of 15, and he was a religious teacher. I was quite naughty and even drunk alcohol from the age of 15, and smoked the drugs; methamphetamine. But I also follow the rules of my religion and I feared Allah, the God of Islam.
When I was 20 years old I went to peninsular Malaysia and worked in Kuala Lumpur, I did many jobs there. But I realized how dangerous it was to live in a big city. I always smoked cigarettes, met new friend and started taking drugs and drinking strong alcohol. I also followed the black metal group; at that time I felt like listening to black metal songs based on anti-religious and anti Christ the group who sang the song like Marduk from Sweden, Dimmu Borgir from Norway and Cradle Of Filth from England; was the best thing to do.
Shortened story, until I was 26 years old, my life became so uncertain there, no work, sleeping on the street in Kuala Lumpur. I was fired from my job because often non-attendance at work due to drugs and alcohol. Life became so uncertain that there were times when I could not eat for even two days, because there was no money to buy food.
But I found the one person who told me I could have a free meal at the church. Yet I was afraid to go there, because I was not Christian; but he told me anyone could go to church even a Muslim or any other religion. So I decided to go there and finally found the church and they welcomed me in. I ate every day, Monday until Friday, and I met many poor and homeless people there. They told me there are many Christian places to go, in case of need. So I wondered why many Christian people did care for me. They gave me food, bed, for shirts and pants and basic necessities such as soap and toothbrushes.
One day I thought I could try to visit the Catholic Church on the weekend to see the way they prayed together, and I sat in the church and I sung along to the songs. It was so sad and that touched me. From there my heart felt like there is something wrong and Jesus told me to follow him and from day to day. I always remember those words of Jesus and I do not know how I automatically stopped to take drugs, cigarettes and alcohol. Until now, I have to thank God and Jesus because they have stopped the evil that held me. But I'm afraid, and I need to become Christian church member, because my identity still Muslim. I have already accepted Catholic faith, and Jesus is my savior and but I'm not yet baptized. People say I must get baptism first, to join the Christianity. I am also afraid if my father learns I am already Christian, I will not meet him anymore. But I do not know he can accept my own way. I hope he knows my life of suffering and how I now follow Jesus. I also always read a bible Malay language spoken in my country Malaysia, my friend give that contain word Allah to represent God in Christianity, and I realize Muslim and Christian share the same God who created this universe and all its planets, and every human in this earth. Even the government makes it very hard to give me permit to convert, only some people can manage this. I am still suffering until this day and keep remembering Jesus and I have already changed to be good person. Maybe some of you may explain me more about Christian faith, pray for my conversion to be smooth that I become successful in life.