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Testimony: My Walk With God
Anonymous testimony "My Walk With God" on 7/31/2015, 9:26am...
I actually have quite a long testimony of my walk with God. I went to church all my life, was baptized as a baby, and did a Christian confirmation at some point during my early years as well. I always thought of myself as a Christian and I do think I had God with me, but I really had a hard time grasping what it meant to walk with God and have a relationship with him. In other words, I did not know how to access him on an every day basis. So basically, I quit going to church in around high school, started dating an abusive man who I started sleeping with. I eventually broke it off with him through a miracle of God, dated another guy, broke up with him, and was saved around about a year later where I accepted Jesus Christ as my savior. I immediately felt the holy spirit come over me, had immense peace, and God radically started changing my heart and life.
Previously before this I had struggled with an eating disorder due to the abusive relationship I had been in. God immediately healed me of this and showed me how it started. However, a few months into being saved I met another man who was not a Christian. I tried to be friends with him, but still being a baby to my faith I quickly fell back into old sin. I still had Christ with me the whole time I dated him but he ended up becoming abusive to me as well as I found out he was a closet alcoholic.
Being with him broke me down, but when we did break up my faith was restored. However it took a lot of work on my end to get right with God again. I struggled with being a Christian and being in the culture that I am. Most of the Christians I was around at church and school and work were very liberal and it caused a lot of confusion on my heart. Even though I thought I was in a good place I still watched main stream movies and still let worldly things get to me. Later, I ended up being hit on by random women (as a woman myself) and then started to wonder if that meant I was gay (Satan is strong!). I started having attractions myself that spiraled out of control. I ended up in tears one day on my bathroom floor crying out to God that this could not be happening to me because I am not that kind of girl. I am the "good girl," and I am the girly girl, I never ever have identified with anything like that. Nevertheless Satan had a stronghold on me. I had people telling me I must be, and all sorts of spiritual attacks going on. I lost my job, I had women at work giving me a hard time, my mom stopped speaking to me.
Long story short though, God spoke into my mind one day and told me that I wasn't gay, and later he helped me work through it. He showed me things with my past boyfriends, things from my childhood, and helped me see how there were gaps in my heart that were just big enough for the enemy to come in on. It was really hard; it wasn't like saying a prayer and being instantly healed. However, God did heal me of it and I have never struggled since. He is a big God and he can heal and save anyone.
I really was willing to work through whatever I had to though to be healed. I had a rough childhood and I had some bad sin in my past, and it was a way the enemy attacked me even as a born again Christian.
My reason for posting my testimony is to say to Christians you really can't entertain worldly things anymore. You can't watch the same shows, same movies, or hang out with worldly people or it will tear you apart. I don't even listen to music besides Christian music now. Also, I really wanted to share my testimony because of all the lgbt rights stuff out now, and to speak out against it and say Christians you cannot be supporting this. It is a lie from Satan that homosexuals are born that way and it has gotten its way into churches (which may be how I was affected), and God will heal anyone who comes to him in humility. I really want to give someone hope out there who may have a friend they know dealing with any of these things. Premarital sex, homosexuality, whatever, it is not something to mess with. We can love people while being an example of Christ. I have SO many Christian friends who support gay rights. It is a sign of the times we are in, and it is scary business. Jesus saves. God bless you all.