Testimony: Instantly Delivered From Pornography Addiction By Jesus!

David's testimony "Instantly Delivered From Pornography Addiction By Jesus!" on 6/05/2013, 6:36pm...

I grew up in a Christian home, went to church my whole life, liked it sometimes and other times I didn't. I never had any Christian friends unfortunately when growing up, which is unfortunate, but not blaming that for what I would get into.

When you're a kid you are curious, when I was 15 I was beginning to like girls allot more, I never showed it for fear of my parents and because of my "religion". I was absolutely terrified if my parents knew I liked girls! Now that I think about it I don't know how that fear began. Today My parents are pestering me to find a girlfriend, so things are kind of backwards. This could've been something I picked up at church, who knows what. I would go over to my friends who had a computer and with his parents not being home, we would surf the net and look for Porn, all my friends and I had that curiosity and fascination, even when I was younger a group of friends and I found a pile of porn magazines in the forest, this was a great find for our group, which is sad to say. I knew it was wrong all along, but it was something we all wanted to see.

I eventually took this to my own home, downstairs we had one computer, and when everyone was asleep I would go surf pornography. I did this for a while until I was caught, but I faked it and said it was a mistake. My parents should've take this much more serious, when they found out I was completely Distraught and wanted to run away! I felt so much fear and shame! It went away and the whole ordeal was forgotten after a couple weeks. So I got back into it, and after that I shortly became addicted and was addicted to pornography for 11 years! I struggled all the time, trying and failing to stop, but it was no use, the hold was so strong I couldn't last 3 days! I was so weak, I was a complete slave to it, in complete and utter bondage. I stopped going to church because I knew that I would just be living a lie, I came to the point where If I can't stop I cant follow God. I only wanted to follow Jesus 100%, but I knew this had to be destroyed before that happened!

I was delivered twice in the 11 years, first deliverance was when I was 19, last year of Highschool (victory lap) I had an urge to get back to God and try and defeat this thing once and for all! I remember that I had hurt my ankle during basketball practice and was leaving to go to an encounter for the weekend. The whole encounter I was praising God with a foot that was swollen like a football and gave me lots of pain! I wanted to be deilivered badly and I pressed in, pressed in hard! I have never felt the presence of the Holy Spirit like I did! It was so strong, it was truly amazing! I went home and the addiction was completely gone, and I had no urge to lust or watch pornography in anyway!

Then a few months down the road, I started to grow faint, and eventually gave right back in. There is many things that I did not do then I see now, and have been shown by the Holy Spirit, reasons why I fell, mainly because I did not renew my mind and didn't feed my self with the Word, I never gave a testimony and eventually I was tempted and I didn't know what to do, so I gave in. I fell back in for over 7 years!! And it got allot worse! I mean allot worse, My mind was being corrupted and I was just falling deeper and deeper into the pit. I thought it was impossible for me to get out now, My mind was so conformed to it, that is all I thought about, and lusted at every women when I got a chance. If I tried to fight my whole body would seize up, it would be taken over by thus overwhelming feeling, that I could not fight on my own, absolutely impossible, no way I could. It's like being chained down by weights thousands of pounds, nothing a human could
break! The Second and Final deliverance! 3 months ago I was hit with an intense feeling of conviction, it felt hard, deep and was hurting me so much, I barely slept for two nights, I hated it, it felt so bad, and I know what it was all about, it was about me and my final destination, it was about my salvation, but also about other who need to be saved. I knew what it was about, so I sat on my bed, and cried out to Jesus! I cried out and I was instantly healed! I believe I may have had to fight off one final temptation right after that prayer, and then was healed, but it was instant! I completely lost all urges to go to seek out pornography, I felt the Holy Spirit upon me and I had the zeal of a lion, I felt so close to Jesus, and was developing this amazing relationship with him it was incredible, I never experienced it before in my life! I was into video games as well, played that hours upon hours a day, that urge was gone completely to, couldn't watch TV or movies as well, all I wanted to do was read my Bible, get to know God! I never experience this much passion before, it was truly incredible! This time was allot different from the first deliverance, I was getting lots of guidance from the Holy Spirit, telling me things I never knew, or never would've known, showed me how to cleanse and renew my mind every day, get into the Word and so on! I want you to know that Jesus is real, he heals and is ready to help you! You must believe, take your time and cry out to him! Keep pushing, keep seeking! Find a local church or find somewhere you can go to an Encounter, they are powerful and have healed many people from their iniquities! You are not alone and it may seem impossible, you may feel like you are a bad and God doesn't want you, on the contrary, he wants you and can use you! You're like that because you allow the enemy to bully you around, Satan has on thing on his mind destroying you! destroying mankind! Don't fall for that lie, seek the truth, get into your word, get help on the internet, do it!

Pray God will deliver you, He will if you have Faith! I know it! Our minds are the battlefield and you need to renew your mind to Christ, I failed to know this, and not knowing this kept me in many bondages including this one. After I was delivered I thought still in shame because allot of my thoughts didn't change, I found out they were from the enemy and my past, I needed to be purged, sanctified, this was process and still continues to this day, I have had so much victory over my thought life, from meditating on the Word and reading book that helped, and knowing who my enemy is and understanding/discerning the lies he throws at you! Lust is a deceitful desire, it only lasts a second and then its gone, that's something I had to mold my mind to, Why would I chase something that lasts a moment, when God is eternity and is the truth, Why would I sneak a peak for a moment, look at a woman lustfully for a second, it doesn't last, its a lie! Renew your mind to that and boy you will have tremendous victory! Remember to weigh everything you do in regard to eternity, I would do this, I can look and go to hell or I can not look and live for eternity! Take it that serious, where one look can lead you to hell! It was ones in that separated us all remember that, so next time you have the urge to sin, think that one time could be it for you!

If you are going through the same things please contact me I want to help!!!
davidc.burns@yahoo.ca

 

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